Update

 

I haven't written in a while, probably mostly due to the awkward blue cast on my wrist, which happens to be inhibiting even the most basic of movements at the moment. However, my lack of writing may also be due to the lazy summer attitude I've developed lately. Either way, here is a post all about what is going on in my life at the moment in regards to the accident.

So, my last post focused entirely on the accident. Interestingly enough when I wrote the post I was in a fairly decent mood. I am again in a peaceful state of mind, but this does not in any way reflect the vast directions my emotions have taken me. I have faced anger, disappointment, sorrow, anxiety, fear, and many other feelings in the past few weeks. I hope that even if my tone seems calm, my other emotions may be presented clearly.

Last time I wrote I had just been in an accident involving my car being sandwiched between two others due to a reckless driver behind me (looking at a cellphone) and a kindhearted driver in front of me (stopping for a pedestrian). I had been fairly certain our car was totaled, and had gone to a clinic to have my wrist looked at. I was still dealing with the shock of the accident.

Now, I am certain our car is totaled and have already accepted the meager amount of money that the insurance agent supplied us. Our car was a 1994 Toyota station wagon. Though old it was extremely reliable and had served as one of our two cars (the other being a 1960? Volvo that my dad has owned since his college days). Needless to say my family relies on the Toyota the most, and uses the Volvo only in cases where two cars are needed. Having our Toyota ripped from our family was a major loss. We knew in order to find a car that was as reliable we'd have to spend more money than the insurance was offering us as the worth of our car.

Toyota

Volvo

 

 

 

 

 

We were given a rental car for a week. It was alright, but definitely not at all like our old car. My dad actually had trouble seeing out the back window and ended up backing into another vehicle in the church parking lot. It gave me quite a scare, even though my dad was going slow enough that he left no dents on either of the cars. Needless to say after seeing how nervous and upset I got just backing into another car I can tell that getting behind the wheel again is going to be a challenge.

So as my psychological health gradually repairs itself, my physical health is being dealt with by an orthopedist. Many people have asked if my hand/wrist is broken. The truth is I don't know, and neither did the doctors I saw. Considering the amount of pain I was in even after a week the doctor decided it was best to just cast it to make sure it heals up properly. I get my cast off on Tuesday and then check things over again. If I'm still in pain I may have to look into more treatment and such, but I'm hoping for positive results. In the meantime I'm just living with the humiliation of being unable to do my own pants. I will be glad to be rid of this cast.

Last, but not least we have actually managed to find a new car. It was found for a very reasonable price from a person in our neighborhood, and so far my family loves it. We're just hoping it will last us as long as our last car and be as reliable. It's a 2001 Toyota Highlander. I think it should fit our family's needs pretty well.

Our new car model

Please keep me and my family in your prayers. We are still adjusting to the new car, and trying to makeup for the money we've lost. And for myself I am still healing physically of course, and I know that I will most certainly be challenged as I get back behind the wheel. Please pray for God's peace to fill me, that I may trust him with my safety even when I am afraid.